My thoughts.

So, I have gotten a lot done at work today but, like any other day, there is a time when I get bored. I get all my things done and there isn't much to do. So, I thought I'd share a couple of things that have been thinking about lately:

1. What really makes a friendship??
Is a friendship made, and kept, just because you have known someone for a long period of time? Can you still really consider someone a friend who has completely changed over the years? I thought friendships were supposed to be easy, and only true friendships were those that didn't need a "makeover" every couple of months.

2. Did I go to school for 6 years for this?
In my last post I commented on how much I love my job, and I do. But, sometimes I wonder how I went to school for 6 years, got 6 certificates, 2 associates degrees, and a bachelors and graduated Cum Laude but have ended up being a glorified secretary. This is where the "Dreamer" part comes in. Is it too much for me to really believe that I DESERVE to have a good job where I can comfortably live off of what I make? I question, is there something bigger out there for me?

3. I want a dog!
I can't seem to get it off my mind. I can't wait until I buy a house
(or find a new apartment) where I am actually able to have a dog. I've been doing a lot of research online about what dog would be the best fit for me. I want a dog that sheds very little, good with kids (Avery will have a best friend in him/her), easily trainable, and highly loveable. The dog that fits that description the best is a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel.

4. SIMS Affair.
So, tonight is the big dinner for SIMS (Southern Illinois Medical Services). Everyone who is in some way a part of SIMS will be there...doctors included. Now, my problem is that I am shy and very quiet around people that I don't know. Tonight is the night for me to go out and meet everyone I can. This could possibly open some doors for me and make some great contacts. I've started to get a little excited about tonight, but at the same time I am still nervous.

5. Why does everyone say I'm being too picky when it comes to guys?
It is so much for people to believe that I've had my heart broke a couple of times so I refuse to settle for someone that won't make me happy. When I say I'm not interested in dating them just believe that I have a good reason. I wasn't lucky like some people to find the love of my life in high school.

6. Underwire.
Yes, meaning the underwire in bras. I mean, why does it always seem to pop out when I'm at work and can't do anything about it!! Seriously, this is the second bra in a month that the underwire has come out of. Talk about annoying!!

7. Avery Payton.
I have Avery's first picture ever taken hung up right next to my computer where I look at it multiple times in a day. He has grown up so much in almost 6 months! I always think about who he will become as he gets older. Will he be great in school without having to try like his mommy, or maybe he will be a star athlete like his daddy. Will he eventually date Taylor Crippen??? Will be be quiet or loud? I can't wait to see who Avery becomes!

8. I'm cold.
Really, how is it that I can't work without having a coat on?? That's all I'm thinking about with this one...

OK. Well I'm going to stop for now. These are just a few thoughts that have popped up in my mind today. Feel free to comment on them.

I'm having a bad day.

So, I was going to wait until tonight to post an entry but I can't anymore. I've just about had it with these docs, or should I say the ladies that work for the docs! I have been trying to set up meetings for the last 3 weeks, so of course I have been in contact with the same ladies about when the docs are open for these meetings. Well, I was finally able to confirm this meeting (trust me, it takes a long time to confirm a meeting when it includes 5 doctors) so I called Jana, the lady that works for one of the docs at CMA (Carbondale Clinic to some). Well, Jana must have been having a bad day because instead of just taking the message and passing it on to the doctor she decided to lecture me for about 3 minutes on how she doesn't have time to deal with me.

SERIOUSLY!!! I wanted to SCREAM at her!! "DAMN YOU LADY, DO YOU KNOW WHO I WORK FOR!!!??!!!" But, I didn't. I kept my calm about me and didn't say a word. But, I did talk crap about her after I got off the phone just to make myself feel better. The thing that gets me the most is that if she is treating me this way, how in the world is she treating patients from one day to the next? I mean, hell, she has to stick patients with needles all day! Screw that! I know who I'm NOT going to next time I get sick.

Anyway, I wanted to get out my frustration. Just for your enjoyment this is a picture of how I am feeling right now.

Let me introduce myself...

First and foremost I am very new at this...new meaning I have never done anything like this before. Mandy (a friend from work) told me about this today only when my "go-to website" (the one I am normally on when bored at work) was blocked! So, here goes nothin'!

This is me! The name is Jenny and I was born and raised in a small town in southern Illinois. A lot of my friends took what chance they had and got out of here as soon as they could. Me you ask? I decided to stay here. I thought about moving, and then shortly after I burst into tears. That's right! I'm a momma's girl, or daddy's girl, or sister's girl...whatever I am I can't seem to pull myself away from my family. It didn't help when my sister had a baby...this is him!!

I know, he's cute, go ahead and admit it!! I tend to act like he is my own so when you start reading blog after blog about my nephew don't be surprised!

Other than my family my next love is my job (I know, sad right?!). I absolutely LOVE the people I work with. There couldn't be a better place to work if I say so myself. Right now I am basically a glorified secretary that my organization likes to call an EXECUTIVE SECRETARY III...yes they even add a number. The more you have the more important you are I guess (it must be good that I have 3!!) :)

Well, I can't give it all away in one blog so I will tell you more later. Until then, it's nice meeting you, cyberspace. :)